It’s not easy to explain my feelings about living in Utah these past 16 months. There where parts of Utah that I thoroughly enjoyed and yet most of the time, I felt overshadowed by something dark and ominous. It was a constant source of discomfort that didn’t let up until Utah was in my rear-view mirror. The day we left was the day I felt as if I was let out of prison. This is an extreme statement to make but for an Empath such as myself, oppression became a smothering monster camouflaged and hidden within the very neighborhood that was supposed to be my sanctuary.
It never occurred to me that granite was my kryptonite; I guess we learn what helps us along the way and what hinders us. It has a resonance to it that pulls in energy. I didn’t find any positive metaphysical properties to the Wasatch Mountains because I believe that Reptilians have taken over the Granite Mountain with multiple cave entrances nature made and human made. Also the Mormon Church has their records vault in Little Cottonwood canyon which I do believe plays a part in the strange vibration that comes off the mountain. Don’t get me wrong, the Wasatch Mountains are a beautiful place, full of wildlife that thrive and great walking trails. But I could never put my finger on it, within the mountains, there was always something ominous watching, an awareness that was constant and formidable. As the months passed, I grew more weary of going for mountain drives or for that matter, going on hikes. I noticed that the entities and beings who had contacted me for years in New Mexico, where nowhere to be heard or seen. They seemed to vanish from my very consciousness without a trace. I didn’t know it back then but I know it now, I was held prisoner. The spiritual beings, dimensional teachers and Cryptids that were my friends weren’t allowed to come near me within the months that followed.
Fortunately, the Dugway Beings were able to contact me within the first 2 months and I think the reason they could was because Dugway is far enough away from the Wasatch Mountains and the hold on me was just starting. Skinwalker ranch was also within the first couple of months and that is when Amadeus and Antioch contacted me. By April I was confined and couldn’t feel anything. I was starting to get very depressed.
The Reptilian presence in Sandy had slowly but surely blocked me from gaining any new information from any of my contacts. Slowly I had started to see glimpses of a Reptilian female that I had written about in another post. It didn’t occur to me that this female was a problem only because my experience with Reptilians had been from that point, very little.
The few things that I learned from my experience with this female Reptilian, helped me understand this group of beings better. First and probably the main objective for them in the beginning is isolating their victims. It’s key for them because they like to slowly deplete the energy level of humans. This can be either for a food source or for keeping humans captive; it’s a vital first step. Second is blocking, almost shielding a person from any telepathic information, either in dream time or the waking state. Dreams become vague and sleep is disrupted almost as if you never slept at all. For example waking up was a chore at times and there were a few times when I stood up to go to the bathroom, I fell to the floor because I was so disoriented. As you can see, the third aspect of their agenda is to disorient their victim. I can’t tell you how many times I went into a room and forgot what I was in there for. I would pull out of the drive way and forget for a split second where I was going or which direction I should drive. I would forget simple grocery store items and end up getting things I didn’t need.
Mind manipulation played another role. I was sure at times that someone was watching the house. I was paranoid to the extreme and if someone looked at me strangely, I thought they were following me. I was grumpy and started arguments with Michael and interestingly enough, he was also starting to show some of the same signs that I had but in a milder fashion.
Thoughts would go through my head for instance that I needed to be on my own and that I wasn’t happy with Michael. He’s the love of my life so this in itself was a major wakeup call for me that led me realize that something was very wrong. In this case it was what I call a very serious Reptilian constraint quandary.
Depression was the fifth problem due to my low energy. Because I became isolated from my Spirit Guides and Cryptid friends from the blocking, they couldn’t help me or send any help my way. When a person’s energy is low, it is like a beacon signaling to all the other dark and ominous creatures to come in and feast. I had the succubus experience I wrote about in an earlier blog post that wouldn’t have happened with my normal range of energy.
For an Empath to become isolated, in some ways, is a fate worse than death. I would hear the humming in my ears at certain points become so loud it gave me multiple headaches. It was actually within the last 4 months living in Utah that I had ear problems. Michael did the ear candling for me twice and huge amounts of ear wax came out of both ears. I believe it was a physical result of being blocked and isolated for so long. Sound is important for an Empath and to become deaf to the ethereal world and dimensional realms is a huge shock to the system. What I took for granted within my scope of hearing is now my saving grace. I appreciate more than ever those who speak to me from the dimensional and magical realms.
The last two months I fought the female Reptilian and I focused on the things that were positive motivators in my life. Moving was a great motivation because it was Michael’s and my goal for a couple of years to be in Oregon. Focusing is one way to gain back energy. Replenishing what is being taken is vital and it’s one way of taking back your power and willfully standing your ground against such negative and manipulative energy.
Meditation of any form is great; I would take neighborhood walks or go to a park and focus on the moment. Being in the moment is a great way of starting back to square one and focusing on what matters, what makes you happy and those goals that are future gems. It’s all about keeping the innerself protected and blocking out those dark and negative beings from trying to take your essence.
In the end, getting to our goal was that much sweeter especially since we get to look out our windows and see tall pine trees, green grass and an inviting water fall in our back yard. We finally have a house that is truly our home and all our Cryptid friends, dimensional beings and spirit guardians are now free to visit and thank goodness …they do!
Next week read Michael’s thoughts on Utah.